It's Facebook Official

For those of you who are long-time followers of my blog (all three of you) I wanted to tell you my good news.

I got brave and put a link to my blog on my facebook page.

For those of you who are new. Please. Go back to the beginning of my blog and realize why this is so huge. Then you can continue reading this post as I explain more fully the reason I am proud of myself.

When I started this blog, it was to discuss the roller-coaster emotions associated with the demise of a terrible, abusive relationship. The fact that HE continued to text/email/facebook me. The pain associated with the swearing and belittling. And then the joys at the progress I had made. This blog has been my place to delve into emotions I did not want to talk about anywhere else.

Until HE found out about my blog. And started reading it. I almost deleted the blog after an email he sent me that really rattled me. I didn't, though, because I have never (nor will ever) mentioned his name. What right did he have to control my blog. It isn't my fault he recognized himself in reading my blog posts. Why would I shut it down? This blog was never about him. It was about me and my progress.

I still refused to broadcast the blog, though.

But in light of recent events, I feel totally and 100 percent justified in opening my life to other friends. I have linked my blog. Now other people can know about me and my experiences. And maybe, other people can relate. It is a horrible thing to relate to, and I pray that not many have suffered through similar situations. But if you have, especially if you are CURRENTLY living it, realize that there is light at the end of the tunnel. It's a hard, hard road, but it does get easier.

I don't want to lie and say I have made it to the end of my hard road. I still have moments. But I am slowly peeling away the layers of pain and fear and moving past them. It's not always easy. Like when my guy friend tried to give me a hug in the car and I, without even thinking, said "don't hurt me." Poor Joshie. But at least he knows enough to not be offended by that.

Honestly, opening up my blog to the world and saying, "hey, this is me" is hard. I am not ashamed of my past. But it is hard when people don't understand. They sometimes say things that sting a little.But I think I need to work through that, too. Because people are generally kind and concerned. The few that aren't just don't understand.

So there you go. Thank-you to those of you who have stuck by me throughout my journey. Thanks for your kind words and your thoughtfulness. And thank-you for being here when I start my newest journey.