But I can't bring myself to do it.
I'm tired.
I am in pain.
I am lonely.
Sometimes I miss HIM.
I wish things were different. I've tried to change my situation. I've been positive. I've been busy. I've done everything I can think of.
I want it better. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to pretend to be happy.
Some days.... I don't even want to be here.
But I am trying to remain positive.
It's hard.
But I can't complain. I won't.
Not now.
:(
Maybe tomorrow.
Some days, you just have to let yourself complain and feel like crap. Those days suck, but it's hard to put on a smile when not a single thing in you feels happy. One day you will feel truly happy again, it may not happen as quickly as you like and it may take a lot of work, but it will happen.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. Sometimes I miss her... to be honest... I miss her almost always. I wonder if i have completely screwed up my life. I always wonder if she thinks of me as much as i think of her... i want to feel better but sometimes it feels impossible.
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