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57 days into 2010.

308 days to go.

I have so much to say right now. So many things wanting to be written.

The filter on my brain is keeping me from saying these many things.

I would love to elaborate on my frustrations.

My joys.

My anguish.

But everything is one big, red blur. Or maybe it's blue...

...or purple...

I am glad that tomorrow is Friday.

Maybe in my class, the girl who sits next to me will tell me my swollen face looks better.

Maybe I won't leave early to avoid conversing with people.

Or perhaps tomorrow will be different than today.

And yesterday.

Different than last week...

All I ask is that I keep the rational side of my brain intact. Some days I worry about what I might do...

But that really doesn't matter, does it?

Just like my filter doesn't matter either.

Who cares what I do or say?

No one reads this anyway.

So here's to you, Nobody.

Happy Friday.

And happy day 58.