Secret Regrets

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I regret you. I regret trusting you and letting you know the pain I had been dealing with. You used that against me and hurt me far worse than I could have ever imagined. And yet your words continued to sooth me and blind me to the truth until it was too late. I regret telling you I love you and letting you touch me that way. I never wanted you to, but I allowed it because the abuse was worse when I didn't comply. I regret not telling you to leave long before I did and I regret holding on for so long after I said goodbye. I regret allowing myself to fall into the same trap again and let someone new into my life to hurt me. I regret that I am not stronger and all men seem to think I am only good at being their punching bag. But the thing I regret most is that despite the fact that I claim to know I am worth more than you say I am, I DON'T. I regret that I secretly believe that everything you have told me is the truth, that I am worthless, and that I should be dead. If it wasn't so sick, I would regret that I was even born in the first place.