FHIM?

Angry.

Seriously seeing red.

I don't even have the words to describe the thoughts running through my head. I can't even believe it. Ugh.

Why is life so much more complicated than it should be?

And why can't I talk to anyone?

No one would understand anyway. Seriously the guy has the wool pulled over everybody's eyes. No. No HIM. Another him, though. Just as jerk-face-y. Except this guy I WANT to pulverize. He hurt someone I love. I would go through a thousand more relationships with HIM if I could fix what other him did to my best friend.

Other him needs a name. Hmmm.

Suggestions are welcome. OHIM? HHIM? SHIM? FHIM?

Ok. So the last one is uncalled for. I won't erase it though. I'm too angry.

Wish me luck sleeping tonight.

Loves.

Farewell to a Sister

My lovely sister is now in the MTC.

It is super trippy.

It is hard. I miss her. And I keep coming up with things I have to tell her. The email I wrote her yesterday ended up being 4 pages long. Wow. I never thought I had that much to say in real life. Apparently if you leave I will have more to say to you.

School has been uneventful. Except I have been driving back and forth between Layton and Logan. It has been super overwhelming. I did it initially because I wanted to spend every available moment I could with Shantae. Now I have been driving back and forth because I have been super homesick. It is weird admitting that. I have lived in Logan for how long now? It just feels empty without Shantae across the hall. I am sure all of my roommates think I am psychotic, but I can't help it. Things just seem better with my cat and my bed at home.

It doesn't help that my room at school is super hot. I don't even understand why my room has to be ten degrees warmer than the rest of the apartment. I get so hot at night. But when I open my window I freeze. And I have to listen to people outside all night. Some days I just can't handle the uncomfortableness of it all and I find myself in my car again... driving home.

No worries, though. I think I am just a little homesick because I am Shantae-sick... if that makes sense?

Anyway. I know I always promise this, but I am going to try and update this more. I love this blog and I have so many things I would love to talk about here. I just get side tracked.

Well, happy Thursday. Tomorrow is Friday! Yay!

Loves!